I usually try to keep the messy, complain-y, personal stuff off my blog (OK, except for the stuff about life being a major distraction from art-making); but I think this can be filed under the “I’m only human” category, and I bet a lot of people can relate to this predicament.
I read about City & Guilds’ Patchwork diploma probably in late 2005 but TS&WGH and I decided I should wait to enroll because we didn’t know if we’d be moving in summer ’06 and we didn’t think I should take a long break just as I started the program. By the time we knew we’d be stable for two more years, I had the opportunity to have a solo show which I couldn’t pass up. Obviously, that took all of my free time last year. Last spring, while I was preparing for the show, TS&WGH took the opportunity to take a career building (and boredom curing) course in the US which would take him away from our home for almost five months. I could have canceled the show at that point, but I don’t admit defeat easily, or gracefully. By the time I had been a single parent for a few months and was overwhelmed, it was too late to cancel (thanks to my deep sense of loyalty). I made it; finished enough quilts to fill the gallery and the show is getting a good reception from it’s visitors. All is well that ends well.
So what does this have to do with City & Guilds? It’s the new year, I don’t have any pressing deadlines, I’ve made my class outline for the course in Halle I’ve been invited to teach, I’ve carefully chosen possible dates for the class based on TS&WGH’s long weekends so he can be Mr. Mom, my computer is backed up, and I’ve outsourced the rebuilding of my website. I am ready to tackle some “professional development,” namely the City & Guilds Patchwork diploma course (a two to four year endeavor if I go all the way).
As Murphy’s Law would have it, TS&WGH is now looking at the possiblity of a six month deployment starting in the next month or so. He really has to take it because, not only is it a career building opportunity, but it shields him a little longer from a 12 month deployment to a much more dangerous place. Of course, the one long weekend before he would leave is the one weekend that doesn’t seem to work so well for the shop in Halle. I could insist that the class be held in February and maybe not have a great turnout, or I could work with the shop and have the class in March, but impose on my neighbors to take care of my kids for the three days I would be gone. *UPDATE* My neighbor said she will watch the kids if need be!!! I heart her!
Which then brings me back to City & Guilds. I’m wondering if starting the course now would be too much while I’m a single parent, even though it is self-paced. Of course, if I wait until he gets back in late fall, we’d be facing that non-productive holiday time, and then a possible move in the summer of ’08 which brings us back to where I started with the prospect of a course hiatus just as I get it going.
So, I wonder, what would a sane person do? Would a sane person hold on to his or her desires and make it work despite the odds, or be realistic and put off non-essential activities until a better time when there’s more support for the day to day stuff? Is there ever a better time? It certainly seems like there isn’t one in my life. The only constant I’ve found since “we” joined the Army is change and uncertainty.